Indubitabil, Nu Conteaza.

it happened to me so it might happen to you. i’m not here to charge you for some free advice. i’m here to tell you: DON’T! Don’t do things you’ll soon regret, don’t bend your knees for total strangers, who come & go and leave you empty, don’t beg for memories to last when they can only disappoint you. live life here & now. live it as there’s no tomorrow, but: live it right. live it as if your soul is bound to Heaven. all day, every day, 24/7.

(when you don’t really care about yourself, this might be hard homework to do. i know, ‘cuz i am one who cheats on life. i say i care, but God knows how much disinterest for myself i bear each morning when i wake up. i like to imagine i’m being free-spirited and highly creative. but it’s so much easier to go down the roller-coaster in one easy step. one bad thing happening and - boom! - i end up confused.)

** i’m sitting at a McDonalds table (no free advertising; it happened to be in the neighborhood), watching high-school kids fall in love at a table close to mine. just got a call from my ex-actual-soon to be-i-don’t know what-boyfriend, telling me that he wants to meet his ex-GF.

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***my world is melting, going down… still feeling like the tip of the ball-point pen, still craving to be soon at ease.